I wrote a post on the 29^th November. It talked of being happy if I stopped caring. I didn’t want to believe it but I think that’s the only way for me to be happy. I care far too much about people and not letting them down and yet somehow, I always seem to get let down. People never seem to try for me. I never let people down unless it can’t be helped but when the boot is on the other foot; I never see them making any such effort. Maybe I get my hopes up too much? Maybe I need to tell myself that nothing will ever happen but then, how can I be happy like that? I just wish people would realise the effort I make for them and reciprocate. I give up.