So I'm being fairly contradictory to my earlier post today regarding my lack of inspiration.
Sometimes I honestly wonder about the goodness in people,
I want to trust people. I want to believe that they are good. I want to believe that they will treat people how they want to be treated. I want to believe a lot of things..
But I don't.
The truth is that I have experienced far too many people that will lie, manipulate, use and abuse. Now this may be my own lack of judgement but I have found that I'm a complete pushover and end up getting hurt, a lot. I'm too busy trying hard to be there for others and do right by them that I in turn, end up getting walked over.
Is the only way to get ahead to stop caring?
I dont want to be cold, I really don't. But sometimes I feel like that's my only option. Survival of the fittest and all that jazz.
I wonder, can you really be happy if you always put others first?